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Wednesday November 30, 2005
The Meaning & Purpose of Life
I can feel it now...the tension...the expectation...the scintillating excitement
of an upcoming revelation! Finally, someone is going to reveal the ultimate
meaning of life and simultaneously the very purpose and reason for my existence.
You're doing it! That's right. You heard me. You are already doing it.
Let's put it another way. You're not going to find anything more than what's
already happening. The ultimate 'why's' are essentially a mystery. Oh, you can
take one of the many belief systems already established by a variety of
philosophies, religions, theories, scientific speculations and so on, but is
that going to tell you which one is right? Do you expect that I'm going to tell
you which one is right? (Poor misguided soul - Who? You or me?)
Life is. (Period) You ARE that life. In that life, that awareness, this
experience that is going on there is a mind, and the mind is telling you there
is an ultimate meaning and purpose and you MUST find it. What if, for a moment,
you just let go of that thought that there was something to find, some purpose
beyond this moment that's happening now? So what should you do with your life?
Again, chances are you are doing it. If you don't like what you are doing,
change it! If you can't seem to change it, deal with it, accept it, surrender to
it, see the humor in it. In the end, the body disappears, and perhaps something
else happens. Perhaps not. Does it matter? A huge amount of time is wasted
pondering the 'what-ifs.' Of course, probably a larger amount of time is
wasted in far worse arenas of life. But then again, if the purpose and meaning
of life is whatever is going on for you at this moment, then I guess no time is
really wasted, is it?
But, is there a God? Am I God? Which path is the correct one? ("Path to where,"
I might ask.) What are you doing in your life, right now? Is it so bad? If you
don't really evaluate it or compare it to some 'other' person's life or a TV
show or any religious or mythological figures, but simply take your life as it
is in this moment, is it really THAT bad? Do you think that if you know which is
the 'true God' or the 'true path' anything will change?
what about all those enlightened people and their expressions of the Divine and
the Absolute and everything. What about YOU? Well, I'll tell you. It really
comes down to a couple of simple things. Recognizing that THIS IS IT, and the
YOU that you are concerned with is a fallacy. It's like Wu Wei Wu said,
"Why are you unhappy? Because 99% of what you do and what you think are all for
the self; and there isn't one."
Stop thinking for a sec and just feel what's going on right now. Just kinda 'be'
the now. Is that so bad? Nahh! I didn't think so.
Bonus Blog - 2012 - Been
There, Done That
Everybody knows this old phrase, "Been there, Done that." I had the thought the
other day. Take it for what it's worth (i.e. more or less a joke).
billions and billions of years ago, (or perhaps in the infinite expanse of
ancient Now-ness) the Infinite Absolute arises and begins to express as
universes, galaxies, Gods, Goddesses, planets, plants, animals and even people.
It expresses itself as these things, and they expand, grow, evolve, awaken on
various levels. Entire civilizations rise, grow, decline, and ultimately fall,
being replaced by a slightly different, perhaps more evolved civilization. This
is taking place on innumerable planets in infinite dimensions of time and space,
simultaneously, concurrently, whatever. Entirely unimaginable (to our puny
minds) this has been going on - One infinite Consciousness
expressing/experiencing infinitely, seemingly forever. And then one day, a new
thought arises to it - "Been there, done that." It can't even begin to imagine
any more subtle variations of the infinite number of expressions it's already
made. Remember, it has been doing this in infinite dimensions for infinite
years. Perhaps it's just friggin tired. Why is it, that in the last decade or so
this idea has been arising among the youth and others - 'Been there, done that?'
Is it the manifestation of the Absolute's ultimate boredom? What if this is what
the Mayan prophecy of 2012 is about? The premonition of the Universe's ultimate
boredom. "It's time for a nap!" No big cataclysm. No rapture. No big reverse
bang. In fact, for that matter, no little whimper. Just ...
Saturday November 19, 2005
Do I Meditate?
Often I'm asked if I meditate, to which I normally answer, 'no.' I say 'no'
because, in most people's minds, when they ask that question, they're really
asking, do I sit at a specified time, doing a particular practice, or technique,
or something they can grasp at and understand in order to help them 'Get There.'
But the reality is more that I am always meditating. However, probably even more
precise is that I often claim that I sit around and do nothing for hours at a
time. This is true. More true is that what is happening is that I am being
meditated. The distinction is that there is no willful intent. My
eyes close, and stuff goes on. Sometimes I appear to be asleep, and for all
practical purpose, I am, except that there is an awareness of things going on
around me, (sometimes including my own snoring). Sometimes there are thoughts.
Sometimes no thoughts. Sometimes great expansiveness, and sometimes not. But
there is no willful intent to direct it in any way. Whatever happens is just
fine and that part that 'appears' to be Aja is surrendered to whatever may
happen, knowing that it is all according to Divine will.
So, I don't want to give the mistaken idea that I am against meditation. I'm
not. However, I would suggest that what most people call meditation is really a
mental exercise to try and get somewhere, rather than an opportunity to
surrender more deeply into the Absolute Now. Simply close your eyes and
surrender to That! Trust in God or Goddess or the Divine or Truth, to carry and
lead you through whatever evolving you are meant to pass through. You can't push
the river - you can only flow. Resistance is futile! Or at the least painful. Of
course, if that's what you need to go through, nothing I say is likely to change
that either. So surrender to your highest capacity, and trust. There is no
'place' to get to...there is only the deeper recognition of what is already
happening NOW. This is natural meditation.
Saturday November 12, 2005
Every once in a while, it's fun to play with an
idea and explore it within consciousness. Einstein said, "The only real valuable
thing is intuition." (That's not the thing to ponder.) Intuition is defined as
the power or faculty of knowing things without conscious reasoning. Intuition is
highly under-rated these days. If you can't figure it out with your tiny ass
left brain, it ain't worth squat. But, much of that which is worth knowing,
including who and what you are, can never be understood or figured out with that
tiny brain or mind, because they are simply arising (occurring) within that
non-definable thing, namely Awareness, or consciousness.
So, here's the ponderable thing... Infinite
Lately, I've been pondering the idea of
spectrums - a continuous sequence or range - whether it be of light, sound,
energy, time, and how the person fits into the spectrum. For instance, what we
are able to see is a very tiny range or spectrum of electromagnetic waves that
go from thousands of miles in length to millionths of an inch. Of course, all of
this is within the phenomenal realm, but still, it helps us to understand the
vastness of what we don't know, see, recognize with our limited mental
capabilities. Our mind, which is what most people identify most strongly with,
is specifically meant to break things down, to create clear delineations and
boundaries - to cut things up into digestible pieces. However, in our minds, we
then turn those pieces into wholes. We figure that what we can see with our eyes
is the whole of the show, even though it's a tiny fragment of this much larger
spectrum or continuum. Our experience of ourselves, on nearly every level
- physical, mental, emotional, etc. - is similarly just a tiny part of an
infinite continuum, something like a tiny node within (and without) of all space
and time. Ponder (ruminate on, meditate on) this sense of infinite continuum -
that what you know or experience is but a tiny fragment of something that
continues infinitely in all directions and all levels of space, time, being and
non-being, consciousness, knowable and unknowable, forever and ever. In other
words, open up to the infinite. Let go of your perceived boundaries or limits.
Rest in the infinite continuum. Have fun!
Wednesday November 09, 2005
Merrily, Merrily, Merrily,
Merrily, Life is But a 'Meme'
When you look at the process of awakening from
the standpoint of the elimination of beliefs, then you would do well to study
the nature of 'memes.'
So what is a meme? One definition from
Glenn Grant: "Meme (pron. meem): A contagious information
pattern that replicates by parasitically infecting human minds and altering
their behavior, causing them to propagate the pattern. (Term coined by Richard
Dawkins, by analogy with "gene".) Individual slogans, catch-phrases, melodies,
icons, inventions, and fashions are typical memes. An idea or information
pattern is not a meme until it causes someone to replicate it, to repeat it to
someone else. All transmitted knowledge is memetic."
our more conventional language, we talk about beliefs, but essentially, all
beliefs are memes; in other words, virtually none of our beliefs are self
created. They come from someone else, either vertically or horizontally - i.e.
vertically from our parents, elders, traditions, etc., and horizontally from our
peers, friends, social and cultural contacts, and so forth.
What is most interesting about memes is their ability or necessity to replicate
themselves. Author Richard Brodie has called them 'Viruses of the Mind' and has
written a book by the same title. When you consider the implications, you begin
to recognize the extent of their ability to do 'good' and or 'evil.' And their
ability to replicate is often built into the meme itself. For instance, a really
good meme (or a complex of memes, called a memeplex) has built into it the
necessity of spreading. A perfect example is nearly any religion, which says
that you must save others by spreading a particular meme. A meme can be either
beneficial or, suprisingly, malignant to it's host (the human mind). For
instance, memes like Jim Jone's People's Temple was obviously very detrimental
to its hosts, as is the meme, 'smoking is cool.'
Language is considered by many a type of meme, as is the very concept of memes
itself. Advaita, god, spirituality, emptiness, enlightenment...all memes. Moment
to moment, most of our movements, our ambitions and goals, our hopes and fears,
are driven by memes. Thus, our entire 'life' could be defined as the outcome of
memetic movement. But, of course, if you read this, it makes sense to you on
some level, and you spread the idea of it....woo hoo! we're spreading more memes!
Anyway, it's fun to think about and recognize how binding these ideas are,
whether you call them memes, beliefs, mental habits, programming, patterns,
cosmic illusion or whatever.
Now....to Whom do these memes arise?
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