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Aja-Blog November 2005                          

Welcome to Aja's online blog - an ongoing expression of what is arising in Aja's consciousness... random writings, musings, and more on the nature of consciousness, awakening, reality, non-reality, stupidity....

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Wednesday  November 30, 2005

The Meaning & Purpose of Life

Oh! I can feel it now...the tension...the expectation...the scintillating excitement of an upcoming revelation! Finally, someone is going to reveal the ultimate meaning of life and simultaneously the very purpose and reason for my existence.

You're doing it!  That's right. You heard me. You are already doing it. Let's put it another way. You're not going to find anything more than what's already happening. The ultimate 'why's' are essentially a mystery. Oh, you can take one of the many belief systems already established by a variety of philosophies, religions, theories, scientific speculations and so on, but is that going to tell you which one is right? Do you expect that I'm going to tell you which one is right? (Poor misguided soul  -  Who? You or me?)

Life is. (Period) You ARE that life. In that life, that awareness, this experience that is going on there is a mind, and the mind is telling you there is an ultimate meaning and purpose and you MUST find it. What if, for a moment, you just let go of that thought that there was something to find, some purpose beyond this moment that's happening now? So what should you do with your life? Again, chances are you are doing it. If you don't like what you are doing, change it! If you can't seem to change it, deal with it, accept it, surrender to it, see the humor in it. In the end, the body disappears, and perhaps something else happens. Perhaps not. Does it matter? A huge amount of time is wasted pondering the 'what-ifs.'  Of course, probably a larger amount of time is wasted in far worse arenas of life. But then again, if the purpose and meaning of life is whatever is going on for you at this moment, then I guess no time is really wasted, is it?

But, is there a God? Am I God? Which path is the correct one? ("Path to where," I might ask.) What are you doing in your life, right now? Is it so bad? If you don't really evaluate it or compare it to some 'other' person's life or a TV show or any religious or mythological figures, but simply take your life as it is in this moment, is it really THAT bad? Do you think that if you know which is the 'true God' or the 'true path' anything will change?

But what about all those enlightened people and their expressions of the Divine and the Absolute and everything. What about YOU? Well, I'll tell you. It really comes down to a couple of simple things. Recognizing that THIS IS IT, and the YOU that you are concerned with is a fallacy.  It's like Wu Wei Wu said, "Why are you unhappy? Because 99% of what you do and what you think are all for the self; and there isn't one."

Stop thinking for a sec and just feel what's going on right now. Just kinda 'be' the now. Is that so bad?  Nahh! I didn't think so.

Bonus Blog -  2012 - Been There, Done That

Everybody knows this old phrase, "Been there, Done that." I had the thought the other day.  Take it for what it's worth (i.e. more or less a joke).

So billions and billions of years ago, (or perhaps in the infinite expanse of ancient Now-ness) the Infinite Absolute arises and begins to express as universes, galaxies, Gods, Goddesses, planets, plants, animals and even people. It expresses itself as these things, and they expand, grow, evolve, awaken on various levels. Entire civilizations rise, grow, decline, and ultimately fall, being replaced by a slightly different, perhaps more evolved civilization. This is taking place on innumerable planets in infinite dimensions of time and space, simultaneously, concurrently, whatever. Entirely unimaginable (to our puny minds) this has been going on - One infinite Consciousness expressing/experiencing infinitely, seemingly forever. And then one day, a new thought arises to it - "Been there, done that." It can't even begin to imagine any more subtle variations of the infinite number of expressions it's already made. Remember, it has been doing this in infinite dimensions for infinite years. Perhaps it's just friggin tired. Why is it, that in the last decade or so this idea has been arising among the youth and others - 'Been there, done that?' Is it the manifestation of the Absolute's ultimate boredom? What if this is what the Mayan prophecy of 2012 is about? The premonition of the Universe's ultimate boredom. "It's time for a nap!" No big cataclysm. No rapture. No big reverse bang. In fact, for that matter, no little whimper. Just ...



Saturday  November 19, 2005

Do I Meditate?

Often I'm asked if I meditate, to which I normally answer, 'no.' I say 'no' because, in most people's minds, when they ask that question, they're really asking, do I sit at a specified time, doing a particular practice, or technique, or something they can grasp at and understand in order to help them 'Get There.' But the reality is more that I am always meditating. However, probably even more precise is that I often claim that I sit around and do nothing for hours at a time. This is true. More true is that what is happening is that I am being meditated. The distinction is that there is no willful intent. My eyes close, and stuff goes on. Sometimes I appear to be asleep, and for all practical purpose, I am, except that there is an awareness of things going on around me, (sometimes including my own snoring). Sometimes there are thoughts. Sometimes no thoughts. Sometimes great expansiveness, and sometimes not. But there is no willful intent to direct it in any way. Whatever happens is just fine and that part that 'appears' to be Aja is surrendered to whatever may happen, knowing that it is all according to Divine will.

So, I don't want to give the mistaken idea that I am against meditation. I'm not. However, I would suggest that what most people call meditation is really a mental exercise to try and get somewhere, rather than an opportunity to surrender more deeply into the Absolute Now. Simply close your eyes and surrender to That! Trust in God or Goddess or the Divine or Truth, to carry and lead you through whatever evolving you are meant to pass through. You can't push the river - you can only flow. Resistance is futile! Or at the least painful. Of course, if that's what you need to go through, nothing I say is likely to change that either. So surrender to your highest capacity, and trust. There is no 'place' to get to...there is only the deeper recognition of what is already happening NOW. This is natural meditation.


Saturday  November 12, 2005

Mind Busters

Every once in a while, it's fun to play with an idea and explore it within consciousness. Einstein said, "The only real valuable thing is intuition." (That's not the thing to ponder.) Intuition is defined as the power or faculty of knowing things without conscious reasoning. Intuition is highly under-rated these days. If you can't figure it out with your tiny ass left brain, it ain't worth squat. But, much of that which is worth knowing, including who and what you are, can never be understood or figured out with that tiny brain or mind, because they are simply arising (occurring) within that non-definable thing, namely Awareness, or consciousness.

So, here's the ponderable thing... Infinite Continuum. 

Lately, I've been pondering the idea of spectrums - a continuous sequence or range - whether it be of light, sound, energy, time, and how the person fits into the spectrum. For instance, what we are able to see is a very tiny range or spectrum of electromagnetic waves that go from thousands of miles in length to millionths of an inch. Of course, all of this is within the phenomenal realm, but still, it helps us to understand the vastness of what we don't know, see, recognize with our limited mental capabilities. Our mind, which is what most people identify most strongly with, is specifically meant to break things down, to create clear delineations and boundaries - to cut things up into digestible pieces. However, in our minds, we then turn those pieces into wholes. We figure that what we can see with our eyes is the whole of the show, even though it's a tiny fragment of this much larger spectrum or continuum.  Our experience of ourselves, on nearly every level - physical, mental, emotional, etc. - is similarly just a tiny part of an infinite continuum, something like a tiny node within (and without) of all space and time. Ponder (ruminate on, meditate on) this sense of infinite continuum - that what you know or experience is but a tiny fragment of something that continues infinitely in all directions and all levels of space, time, being and non-being, consciousness, knowable and unknowable, forever and ever. In other words, open up to the infinite. Let go of your perceived boundaries or limits. Rest in the infinite continuum. Have fun!


Wednesday  November 09, 2005

Merrily, Merrily, Merrily, Merrily, Life is But a 'Meme'

When you look at the process of awakening from the standpoint of the elimination of beliefs, then you would do well to study the nature of 'memes.'

So what is a meme? One definition from Glenn Grant: "Meme (pron. meem): A contagious information pattern that replicates by parasitically infecting human minds and altering their behavior, causing them to propagate the pattern. (Term coined by Richard Dawkins, by analogy with "gene".) Individual slogans, catch-phrases, melodies, icons, inventions, and fashions are typical memes. An idea or information pattern is not a meme until it causes someone to replicate it, to repeat it to someone else. All transmitted knowledge is memetic."

In our more conventional language, we talk about beliefs, but essentially, all beliefs are memes; in other words, virtually none of our beliefs are self created. They come from someone else, either vertically or horizontally - i.e. vertically from our parents, elders, traditions, etc., and horizontally from our peers, friends, social and cultural contacts, and so forth.

What is most interesting about memes is their ability or necessity to replicate themselves. Author Richard Brodie has called them 'Viruses of the Mind' and has written a book by the same title. When you consider the implications, you begin to recognize the extent of their ability to do 'good' and or 'evil.' And their ability to replicate is often built into the meme itself. For instance, a really good meme (or a complex of memes, called a memeplex) has built into it the necessity of spreading. A perfect example is nearly any religion, which says that you must save others by spreading a particular meme. A meme can be either beneficial or, suprisingly, malignant to it's host (the human mind). For instance, memes like Jim Jone's People's Temple was obviously very detrimental to its hosts, as is the meme, 'smoking is cool.'

Language is considered by many a type of meme, as is the very concept of memes itself. Advaita, god, spirituality, emptiness, enlightenment...all memes. Moment to moment, most of our movements, our ambitions and goals, our hopes and fears, are driven by memes. Thus, our entire 'life' could be defined as the outcome of memetic movement. But, of course, if you read this, it makes sense to you on some level, and you spread the idea of it....woo hoo! we're spreading more memes!

Anyway, it's fun to think about and recognize how binding these ideas are, whether you call them memes, beliefs, mental habits, programming, patterns, cosmic illusion or whatever.

Now....to Whom do these memes arise?


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